I would love to ship Nik with someone, start a legacy with him, watch him grow and become husband and father.

However, sometimes work stresses me the fuck out and I don’t feel like being communicative with anyone. I just wanna be alone with my feelings and when that happens so feel as if I’m holding people and their OCs back from their storylines which isn’t cool at all.

Then when I wanna talk and progress storylines I expect my partner to be on the same page, which I am trying to work on. As I know just like I have moods other people have moods too.

Shipping with myself isn’t the same either, having full control of both parties isn’t as fun as someone else controlling their OC.

Idk this is just a rant or outlet to express how I feel.

yabai